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This time .. Something felt different – Jan 9th

As I watched Lady Gaga’s Enigma Show televised from Miami for the Superbowl – Edge of Glory played….

This would be a daily check in I decided to journal, to help me through this tough times where, I am not only dealing with depression but a drug addiction. Please just be aware that this is ONLY and again ONLY my experience – none else’s..

It has been 24hrs since my last relapse – I am feeling better, have rested up and had good food. I also have been down this road before way too many times, it is so hard to explain how crippling drug addiction can be, its hard.

The other times, It didn’t feel like it was “turning point” as it is referred to in Rehab but this time it feels weirdly different – like I can finally do it! Despite of really wanting to let go off it, but my mind/body wouldn’t.

I feel so happy to FINALLY feel like this. I felt like i was my worst enemy.

I shall use space to check in on myself – share how I feel and to give myself accountability to continue this journey.

*Shallow by Gaga plays in the background*