Today I feel much better 🙂 – So happy I was able to avoid the temptation.
I noticed I was trying to talking my self that I could just still smoke some meth and slowly decrease the amount, which is fine for some people and its a harm reduction action that it is proven to work. However, I dont wanna do that. I guess i am doing the road less travelled which is endure the cold turkey feelings. Its grueling not gonna lie but it is what it is.
I aknowledge that each day I abstain from doing it will feel better.
Still have to join the gym so that I can focus my energy into something that has worked for me in the past. (I abstained for a Year earlier and then also a 6 month) y
Tonight something quite emotional will happen. I am going to a concert of a artist that has remarkably walked hand in hand with my addiction thru its music. I remember when the first record came out, I was at the peak of my drug use and its lyrics spoke so. It feels like going to see this artists will staple my commitment and will to get better and to close a cycle in my life. I can feel it so deep in my skin, it makes me emotional just to think about it – I will cry, im sure of this.
Edge of Glory 