9 days

So I have gladly been 9 days sober. I feel my headspace is much better and clearer.

Depression is a bitch, as I have been able to do somethings but not everything. I dont know why it has been hard to go to the gym. I still feel weird out around people, but i know its all in my head. Afteral I have not socialized at all since I left the recovery program. But i am seeing a best friend tomorrow and attending an event.

Also letting know my close friends that I feel ready to get back into social life. I do – otherwise I would start feeling lonely and this could riple down into mayor depressive episodes.

Yesterday I received a letter, that all of the sudden my monthly support will be cut. I panicked – Now im just waiting for a response hopefully things will work out otherwise Ill have to go back to work – which I dont feel am ready for.

This fill me a little bit with anxiety. But i am doing my best to stay calm. Things happen for a reason – however im trying to find something interesting out there.